Awakening to the Layers of Self
I am quite intrigued by the human experience.
I think about my own experience and think of who I once thought I was. I can’t help but wonder how many other people there are in that place!
In that state of mind.
Probably believing what I once believed, “This is it. This is how life is — exhausting, competitive, unsafe, strangely exciting, and a constant fight.”
And then you wake up!
You wake up to Truth! To infinite possibilities. To the true ‘YOU!’
As I go on this journey of remembrance. As I expand in awareness and recognize that what I thought was absolute truth — is not absolute truth but it may be a truth.
And as the layers of projections and untruths begin to peel away, I realize that — there’s so much I don’t know.
I feel like a part of that experience makes you become still.
I feel like it causes you to get to the state, or this place in your life, where you start becoming more of an observer because you recognize that there’s so much you don’t know.
And maybe there’s so much you will never know because you only get partial glimpses of truth. It’s like an invitation to trust Spirit.
Trust that you know enough to do your part. While also sitting in the space of knowing more than one thing can be true, other people are having experiences you may not understand, and there is a bigger picture here.
More is happening than what we’ve been trained to recognize.
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I think of my own experience and specifically, I think about my experience with the sensations in my body.
I think about my emotions and how much my emotions have influenced my reactions and responses.
I think about the pressure I feel from my emotions sometimes.
When I can feel this intense frustration, or even that one time, I experienced rage — those are the moments where I will pause to decide what to do next. Being able to be with the discomfort and pressure long enough to understand my needs.
But there was also a time in my life when those very same emotions would come up, and I would react as opposed to responding.
I was so caught up in my ego. Caught up in a state of fear and defensiveness.
I would not think before reacting.
There was no time! I had to fight for my life — at least that’s what my ego, through my nervous system, was telling me.
MY EXPERIENCE MAKING ME CURIOUS ABOUT ALL OF OURS.
When I go around the city and I see the different reflections of humanity, and I think about my own experience, it feels natural to be empathic and understanding to everyone I come across because I know what it’s like to not know. I know what it’s like to be in survival mode.
I know what it’s like to be caught up in my ego and at the same time, believe that I know what’s going on.
Believe that I know everything.
Believe that I have life figured out. And be innocent in that belief.
On the other hand — when I awakened, I realized that I was caught up in a world of my own. A world of my own making. Where most rules, regulations, and limitations were created from fears, hand-me-down beliefs, and my perspective of my lived experiences.
I realized how much of life I wasn’t experiencing because I had a belief in what life had to look like. And what it all meant.
Before, I couldn’t accept that I did not know, and I had to be right. Now, I can care less!
And so, I suspect many other people are living like this.
They are experiencing life the way I was — from my ego mind.
And I meet every person with that thought in mind — what if this is all they know?
What if their internal world is chaotic and they don’t know how else to nurture it, and they also don’t have the words to explain it — like, what if they don’t know?
And also — what if I don’t know?
I often think about the fact that I am at this current consciousness state, and before this, it was a different state — so, it would not shock me if there were more states and frequencies to remember into!
Ah! I think I have compassion for us, as a collective.
I can’t help but think that if I had the experience I had, and did not know I was having that experience — at the time… how many others are still having that experience? Or any experience they don’t notice, that isn’t healthy?
It’s just so interesting to reflect on my experience – from my younger years to who I express myself as now, and realize I don’t know much at all, and yet, still, I know so much.
But more than anything I think kindness, love, and understanding can support others as they wake up and remember!
I am often in awe about my life now. No one could have explained this to me… it’s truly something a person has to experience for themselves to understand it.
The journey of self-discovery and/or remembrance often leads to the realization that our understanding is continually evolving, and the more we learn, the more we become aware of the vastness of the unknown.
My journey has gifted me with humility and an openness to new perspectives with infinite possibilities.
It’s like peeling back layers to reveal the depth and complexity of the human experience, and in doing so, finding a connection to the bigger purpose of our existence.
The recognition that there is more to discover and understand has been my invitation to curiosity, exploration, and a deeper connection with the mysteries of life. I am OBSESSED!
NEW ON THE PATH?
If you are new on your awakening, soul remembrance, or self-discovery journey (many possible labels) and you have this pressure of figuring it all out. Or pressure to reach a destination, may I share some of my findings with you:
1. Embrace Uncertainty: Accept that uncertainty is a natural part of life. Life is a journey, and not everything needs to be planned or understood immediately.
2. Live in the Present Moment: Focus on the present rather than getting caught up in future worries. Now, this present moment is all you have — think about it for a moment. You can’t change the past, the future is yet to come — now is where you can truly experience life and make choices. Now, is what actually exists!
3. Celebrate Progress, Not Perfection: Acknowledge your growth and the progress you’ve made, even if you haven’t reached your ultimate destination. Small steps contribute to significant change. One day you’ll be smiling at how things “used” to be.
4. Learn from Mistakes: I am not one to believe in mistakes, as I think every experience provides us with the data we need. But let’s consider it– Mistakes are opportunities to learn. Instead of viewing them negatively, see them as valuable lessons that guide your journey. Valuable lessons that were needed for the path– No experience is ever wasted.
5. Cultivate Self-Compassion: Treat yourself with kindness. Understand that everyone is on their unique journey, and it’s okay not to have everything figured out. You are who you need to be at this moment. The aspect of you that is deciding to show up and be activated, is what this moment needs for your soul’s remembrance. Try to see every experience and every version of you as purposeful. You deserve kindness. You are having a human experience, and humans are fallible by nature… may you journey in Grace.
For those moments where you realize more, and you wish you’d known better — Give yourself compassion for not knowing. Accept that you’ll likely meet this moment again, and that’s part of the journey. That’s the path. That’s part of the experience. You’re awakening. Be proud of yourself because it takes courage and bravery to be on this journey.
6. Set Realistic Expectations: Avoid placing unrealistic expectations on yourself. Set achievable goals and recognize that life unfolds in its own time. Maybe you know the saying, “If you want to make God laugh, tell him about your plans.” You may not know why something is unfolding the way it is but trust that life is happening for you. Whatever this outcome is, trust that it is what you need. Surrender to the idea of needing to be in control.
7. Explore and Experiment: I have a 3 in my Profile in human design, in the unconscious placement, so I have lived a life of trial and error, just by being me. I know it’s not everyone’s jam, but it could be. Be open to new experiences and ideas. Trying different paths can lead to unexpected discoveries and opportunities. What works for some, may not work for you, so you may have to trial and error your way through. This is not a punishment, you’re just meant for a beautiful life, and it’s up to you to work with Spirit to create it!
8. Seek Support: Teenage me used to believe she didn’t need anyone, then I started to realize I didn’t need specific people, but I needed people, and honestly, I wanted to be connected to people. Share your thoughts and concerns with friends, family, or a mentor. Sometimes, an outside perspective can offer valuable insights. Humans are designed to desire and want connection, please don’t turn yourself away from it. You may have had some unhealthy connections in the past, but that does not have to be your final story. Use discernment and be open to connections, if even for a moment. You don’t have to journey this life alone.
9. Practice Mindfulness: Engage in mindfulness practices to stay grounded in the present moment. This can help reduce anxiety about the future. If you don’t know how start with an intentional deep breath, and pay attention to how you feel during and after (that can be your practice).
10. Reframe Perfectionism: Challenge the idea of perfection. Embrace imperfections and understand that they contribute to your uniqueness. For many of us, we’ve been conditioned to believe what is “good” “bad” or “acceptable,” none of which makes it so, these are just people’s opinions with convictions, and then they have enough people to get on board with it. You can decide for yourself that whatever version of you, you’re witnessing, is perfect and enough. You can be your own barometer for perfection, for success, for the idea of “good and bad.” Change your mind, and you’ll change your experience with life.
The journey is ongoing, and it’s perfectly okay not to have everything figured out. When we embrace the unknown, and even get excited about it, it can lead to a more fulfilling and authentic life experience.
I LOVE YOU. I LOVE US.
xx,
CHARLiiE