Consistency and Me: Maybe it was a misunderstanding
Can we talk about perspectives?
Can we talk about how our perspectives might be holding us back?
What I once labeled as inconsistency turned out to be a powerful catalyst for reshaping my approach to life.
I’ve always known myself to follow through on my plans.
To be successful in anything I went for.
There was a plan I knew to follow, and I did. Even when I felt depressed. Even when I was exhausted. Even when I was in constant pain…I carried on.
I made it happen.
But when it came to creating a business.
Establishing my own — it’s like I have no idea what I’m doing — and I guess, I don’t! Lol.
For a while, I have been feeling as if I had issues being consistent when it came to my business. I felt like I was slacking or doing something wrong because it felt like, no matter what I tried, I kept hitting a wall.
I’ve tried different ways of sharing my voice and putting myself out there, as a way to engage and connect with people, but it’s like nothing stuck.
I’ve blogged, done YouTube, podcasted, and all of them three times again.
I’ve tried Facebook, TikTok, and Instagram, like 10 times again.
I have started and stopped, and started again. It was through these experiences that I believed I started to question myself, feeling like I was doing something obviously wrong.
What was I missing?
There would be times I’d say I was going to be consistent with Instagram, and then about 3 weeks later, I would feel exhausted, and blame my schedule for why I can’t keep up. The same thing would happen with YouTube.
I think with the blogs, I just stopped having anything to say. And with the audio podcast, I think I tend to stop when I no longer feel excited about it.
As I am writing this, I realize that the things that require the least prep and post work from me, I was able to stick with. I usually stopped those when I stopped having anything to say; Podcast and blogging. (interesting)
These experiences and my track record resulted in me believing I have shown myself to be unable to commit. I felt like I was not consistent in working to build my business but after today’s experience, I am no longer journeying with that belief!
Screenshot by Author of the Definition of Consistency, through Google
Sometimes you just have to change the lens!
My good good homegirl and I often check in with one another throughout the week, updating each other on our lives and what we’re currently working on. Today I happened to mention that I’ve been on this journey of feeling like I was throwing things at the wall and seeing what sticks, and engaging in the writing challenge has been fun and inspiring.
My friend ended up mentioning how I am very consistent. She found me to be very consistent because even if it feels like a new idea, it’s the same idea I’ve always had– just a new version of me expressing it.
She mentioned that even when I have a small question on whether I will follow through or not, I always follow through.
She mentioned that everything is still consistent, it’s just updated. It’s just evolved.
AND WHEW! That was a mother fxcking word. Because yes ma’am!
One thing about me, I am going to do what I said I would. I made plans, I followed through…
And then I might burn out!! Lol.
But never did I not start on anything I truly wanted to do!
And y’all I needed that!
I needed to hear that and let that marinate all through my ego!
The fact she mentioned consistency and that is something I believed I was struggling with… It had me take a conscious step back.
God, I see what you did here. FREE ME!
Thank you.
And so, I was processing my friend’s words, thinking about my reality… I eventually went over to my internet buddy Chat GPT and explored some things with it.
Here are some of the points:
It sounds like you’re experiencing a cycle of enthusiasm, burnout, and adaptation in your projects. Reflecting on why you get burned out might help identify patterns. Additionally, setting realistic goals, pacing yourself, and finding a sustainable approach could contribute to greater consistency in your endeavors.
It seems like you’ve explored various platforms to share your coaching expertise. Consistency is crucial in building an online presence. If burnout is a concern, consider creating a realistic content schedule, delegating tasks, and finding a balance that aligns with your energy levels. Learning from your past experiences can help refine your approach.
It sounds like you’re in a process of evolution rather than inconsistency. Adjusting and refining your path is a form of adaptability and growth. Consider viewing these shifts as part of your journey toward finding the most effective and fulfilling approach for yourself. Embracing this perspective might help foster a positive mindset shift.
Recognizing the consistency in your adaptability and commitment to finding the right path is a valuable insight. The human journey is indeed a dynamic and evolving experience. Embracing the complexity and growth within yourself adds depth to your understanding.
And ChatGPT had some points, OKAY! *WAKE THAT UP*
So grateful for perspectives.
It sounds like you’re in a process of evolution rather than inconsistency.
And that’s exactly it!
It’s not that I don’t act. It’s not that I don’t try… I dream, create a plan, and take action; every time. I also happen to burn out. But as I was writing this article, I realized when I burnt out, and with what.
Two of the things, blogging and audio podcasting, I organically stopped when it no longer felt correct. When I stopped having anything to share.
Wow.
Along with that… something else I thought about was my beliefs regarding creating a profitable business and how that looks.
Sometimes our beliefs about what is happening can limit what we believe is possible, and how we see ourselves. And how we see ourselves can reflect on whether we feel worthy or deserving of whatever we believe God for.
I was identifying as an inconsistent person and therefore when my business is not thriving I blame myself. I blame my inconsistency, and I focus on that. Telling myself that, that is why… when the actual WHY can be something I am not even thinking about.
When I think about the cycle I was in, I think a lot of it was because I either did not know what I needed or if I did, I did not know how to give it to myself.
I think about how many times I had to refine my schedules and plans to get them to be effective for me. And when I embody another version of myself, I am often invited to make schedule and lifestyle changes, to meet my different needs.
Every season has supported the next. Every season came to be because I awakened to something, and that something helped me to make new choices, and from there… I created new paths.
I BELIEVE THAT!
I often felt like there were levels in our remembrance journey, for the same “thing” (or rather the same situation).
I believe that you can transmute different frequencies, for similar situations, but at different instances. For example, part of your lesson may be accepting a family for who they are. But then another part of it, at a later date, may be you needing to forgive them.
You may have thought you dealt with the situation when you accepted them for who they are, but then Spirit showed you that part of the awakening had not been dealt with yet. And so they then prompt you to forgive and set the energy free.
Photo by Rémy Penet on Unsplash
Along with that — I think of the life journey as a spiral; each moment leading to the next. And you reach these different levels, and it can seem like the same things sometimes, but it’s not.
We get the experiences we need. And we can know that because that’s the experience we’re having.
“Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness. How do you know this is the experience you need? Because this is the experience you are having at the moment.”
― Eckhart Tolle, A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose
All of my experiences on social media, on finding outlets to express myself… They all led here. And who knows where this will lead?
I laugh thinking about the thoughts I’ve had; my beliefs.
Do any of us truly know if what we’re about to do will be successful?
Do we know with certainty that this time, it will work?
I know we are at least hoping, but do we know with certainty?!
And if not, aren’t we all just always taking a chance? With some chances presenting as more probable to be successful than others?
I am not asking this for us to compare. However, I did read this article on Medium, where the writer mentioned that he doesn’t fully know what allows some people to get attention, while others don’t. In this instance he was talking about writers on Medium, and how comparison is the reason why many don’t continue past a certain timeframe.
And — I often wonder if the reason we judge ourselves and our behaviors is because we know that something else exists. And we often look to the other for confirmation that we’re doing okay. That we’re doing life right.
And I don’t think that’s necessarily our fault, or that we’re choosing to operate this way. I think it’s part of how we are raised. Our nurturing.
How we’re conditioned to see ourselves in the world, and so it tends to happen naturally. Often subconsciously.
And at different frequency levels.
Photo by Ian Schneider on Unsplash
So that was some reflection from today!
Today felt like a heart-opened, loving day.
After talking to my friend, I was on such a high. I felt like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders.
I’m in shock that I did not realize this before.
I was consistent, those burnouts were proof (of sorts lol). But those burnouts were also signposts that it was time for a change. And things did change… every time.
I would go into the void, transmute the dense energy, and come out spiritually renewed, with a plan!
And a plan that I would follow through.
I’ve been doing my part.
And Spirit has been looking out for me.
Maybe I am taking the more adventurous route to my destinations, but I trust that I am in progress and the process.
I deeply believe that our experiences are building on top of each other.
They are making a way for our visions to be our reality.
Each path I took led me here, and at this moment I have clarity I did not have yesterday. And with this clarity, I can make new choices. And these choices will help facilitate change.
I am so grateful for my friend’s words today, they unlocked something in me. Released some heavy energy and now I am breathing differently.
Here’s to being FREED!
I give thanks
What has been your experience with consistency? Did anything in this article resonate with you?
Please meet me in the comments, I’d love to hear from you there!
Be well, Friend.
Thank you for being here.
Graphic by the Writer sharing a perspective